4/23/2013

First year of college at UW La Crosse is already coming to a close. Time has gone by so incredibly fast. I cannot believe it. It's been a rough, exciting, exhausting and thrilling year. haha God has been teaching me so much that I feel like a can't even count all the lessons. I am not going to try and write down all the details from the last...6 months but in short I have struggled so much and God has redeemed it all. These trials have just allowed for me to see God's goodness that much more. 

The verse that I have really been meditating on lately is one that is really applicable to my life right now:

"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born."

-Isaiah 66:9

There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind. - c.S. Lewis says the exact same thing. God has better thing ahead when things are left behind, we just cannot see God's perfect plan. I have been learning more and more recently to really trust Him and His plan for me, especially when I can't see where it's going.

God has a plan for all people. That includes me. (Jeremiah 29:11) I often don't see how he could possibly make sense of my crazed life. I am learning to trust Him even when I don't see a way out. I know this period in my life, just like all the other, is going to help form me into a more Godly women. I want to be able to fixate my eyes on God and not so much on my surroundings. yeah im very confused right now. About more things in my life than I can express. I am confused and trying to believe that someone would want to be there for me in a relationship and go through everything with me. 

From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

Psalm 61:2

The Lord will be my rock and help me through everything, no matter where I go I have God and that is more than enough. (John 14:8) 

Heavenly Father, Help me to to turn you and make you my rock at all times so I do not shatter. I love you and want to always be able to feel your love and bask in your presence. Give me the strength to be able to depend on you and trust in you and Your plan for me.